Belonging...

im blogging from my computer lab....trying to figure out the sense of belonging in the middle of my class...lately i feel like i dont belong....not to any place nor anyone....so where do i actually belong?...sometimes you feel that when you are with your friends you dont belong...then you start to question youself...are they your real friends?....sometimes when you are at home...you feel like you dont belong...and you start to question yourself again...is this your real home?...is that a sign for a change?....i have no idea....its at these days where i actually realise that there are not many people who i can really depend on...its up to yourself...no one can actually help you...its something that you must figure out yourself....so there i m...wondering....what should i do...what should i have done?...is it too late?....or is it that im too afraid to take a stand....gosh...what should i do....i have no idea at all...everythin is so perplexing that it hurts soo much when i think about it....if anyone would just point me in the right direction....gosh...i don usually get caught up in dilemmas like this...but somehow it got me this time..and it got my hard....that day i was blog hopping and i saw a friend's post and i instantly felt some heartache when i saw some of the photos....the photos brought back some feelings which i tried to surpress for a very long time and suddenly everything just burst out...somehow similar to opening a pandora box....and once its done...its impossible to be undone...what should i do!...