i guess something was very wrong from the start...being close for all this time...it was so close of being perfect...but the cruel reality is that we are alive...that is why perfection does not exist..the only thing wrong in this whole picture was us....
we will never be more than what we are right now...and you know what...as much as I'm not okay with that...there is nothing i can do about it....life is just as it is...I'm seriously physically and mentally exhausted and i don't even have the motivation to keep this up anymore...
so i guess when things are not meant to be...its not meant to be....so when a friendship takes up too much effort...when friendship is just a scheme to trick the other to get to spend time with you.....its just hard to get him to listen....to get him to talk...to get him to care...its not worth it anymore....when effort exceed the pleasure of it...its a sign....its a sign to stop...to quit...
i know...its never easy to say goodbye or to say farewell...
but i guess its a painful experience that we all must experience in order to grow up...friendship suppose to be effortless and supportive...so when a friendship is no longer those things...i just guess its their way of saying..."hey...we are not friends anymore"....if i say I'm fine and okay with it that is a pure lie....i guess i just got to learn to deal with it and never look back in the past again....FRIENDSHIP IS BEING OVER RATED!
-the boy that is crushed Josh-
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