ArggHH Going Nutsssssssssss

arghhhhhhh.............my goodness...Im going nutsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...gawd...stupid mmu..have to make us decide what major we want by tomorrow...and i seriously do not have any idea what to take until now...crap la...i really don't know what to do already..i lost my direction...i lost my confidence...i lost myself....if there is no updates after this post it just means tht practically i killed myself....I aM GoInG NuTssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Dilemma...

Gawd..Im having the dilemma of my life...i have to decide what major i want to take in my degree year before friday and up till now im still stuck and clueless..i really need help deciding...I dont want to make a decision which i will regret and have to suffer for it...I really hope that i have the strength and wisdom to know what to do..but that is not likely going to happen now...Im just stuck..stuck...and stuck!....I dont get it..why is it so hard to decide...its like just pick a freaking subject and study for it and graduate and find a job..get married..have kids..and die...but the thing is that this decision that have to be make wil affect how my life will change...i really dont want to jump into rash decision but mmu is enforcing a freaking deadline which is like super soon...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................LIFE SUCKSSSSSSSSS
-Josh-

Brand New Look

I just changed my blog skin yesterday...its now fresh and it has a brand new look...just hope it gives you guys a nice easy pleasant feeling...comments and suggestion are strongly welcome on the blog skin..

The Butterly Effect

the butterfly effect...its said that whenever a butterfly flap it's wings it's actually causing a hurricane to occur on the other part of the world...amazing aint it?..its said that the cumulative strong wind is due to all the butterfly flapping their wings...so in other word..the butterfly effect is a small action that cause a big change...the term butterfly effect is used in math equation and scientific studies..

its like one of the episode of heroes..titled the butterfly effect...where someone time travel back to the past and they tried to changed a minor thing and it caused a disastrous change to the future...thats why its common whenever you see a movie that got to do with time travel and all it always say that you should not try to change the past...

since we cant change the past we might as well just focus on the future...that future might not seem that bright and glamorous to some of us thanks to the black and dark past...but its that small glimse of hope that everyday is a better day that keep us going...for hope is a very important thing for us all...we can live without wealth but not hope..hope is the only thing that keep us looking forward to the uncertain future that hold endless possibilties...

and based on the butterfly effect theory..every small gesture or action that we take o dint do actually affect all the people around us...therefore we must be very careful with what we do and dont..say o dont say...well..its understandable that we are not saints and we might not know what the people around us are thinking and need..but the very least is that we can try our very best and try to show care and love to the people around us and hope that we will not regret something that happen at this present in the future...

the butterfly effect.....

-Josh-

Black friday the 13th...Duality

yet again...its black friday the 13th...one of those days where you are destined to have bad luck in everything you do...some believe it some may not..but all i can say its that it depends on how you look on it...this wise words are taken from someone close to me..it might just be because that you have a pre-determined concept that you are going to have bad luck on this day that is why you have the tendency to see everything that may have gone wrong on a normal day to b extreme bad luck today...

everything that happened have different point of views to it...one may see war as a sign of brutality and some may see war as a symbol of peace...for those that see war as brutal have the concept that many people are going to die and get hurt which is the reason why they appose war...and for those that see war as peaceful is just that they see that when people get hurt and scared..true peace can actually be achieved...where no one would fight with the condition that they are in....this is also the reason why arguements exist...everybody have a different point of view on things...which is the reason why they argue to defend what they think is right...

freedom might be a savory and it might even be a type of slavery....some might think that if you have freedom its like a kinda of savory and some might think that its a type of slavery as one will keep on fighting for freedom and become a slave for it and one shall no longer experience or even know the true meaning of freedom...

another example would be the fact that some might think that ignorance is strength and some might think that its pure stupidity...the fact that ignorance is strength is cause you are strong enough to keep yourself uninvolve with stuff that happen around you so that you stay clear on your goal...but some might say that its stupidity cause if you do not solve what is coming it will just pile up and one day when you cant take it any longer you wil just break like a stick...

life...its concluded that life is like a game of reversi...its filled with whites and blacks...at times the black may suppress the whites and its the time where you will feel down and sulky..even if you are able to mask your true feelings with a fake smile that might seem so vivid its still not the same and its never enough..this is the time where you need a friend which is like the white of this game to take their place in your heart and turn the blacks to whites...have faith that if you have the right friend they have the ability to overturn the bad situation you are in...

so everything there is a two sided view to it...it all depends on how you see things...have a nice black friday the 13th..

-Josh-

Long Lost Blog

haih...totally forgotten that i owned a blog at all....my goodness..i have been soooooo caught up with things that are happening around me that i totally neglected my precious blog...its new year...i dint post anything for so long already...well..i guess im wishing everyone that read this HAPPY NEW YEAR...have a prosporous year of ox..
make the best of it...new year...new resolution...but i dont think i have any..haha..maybe i do..but just that im not really aware of my subconcious new year resolution...well...anyhow..im wishing everyone gets what they wished for and what they resolve their heart to do they will get it done....i will post another update about my new year resolution once i figure them out...so..welcome back blog^^..and oh ya...lets not forget...those that gamble..win big..XD...win a lot so that you all can treat me to something..hahahaha....XD....n those drinkers...dont drink out of hand...and dont drink and drive...XD...stay safe and stay happy...HAPPY OX YEAR..

-the boy that forgotten Josh-