Friends - birthday post...

friends...a word that is made out of 7 simple alphabets...yet there is an extraordinary meaning behind this 7 alphabet word...we might not realize it but we have learned the meaning of the word since young...we categorize people whom we like and people whom we dont like...you...the girl who is cute...you are my friend....come play with me....but you...the one that suck your finger...its disgusting...you are not my friend..you dont get to play hide and seek with me...as we grow older...we come to realize that friendship is not as simple as that..it requires effort...in fact...tons of endless effort....that needs time..and you need to pour yourself into it for it to grow...and as we grow older..we see different friends come and go...we learn the boundary of friendship...we came to realize how far would my suppose bff go for me?...do you even draw a line of intimacy between two friends?....how do you keep it going for ever?...i would love to have these answers..and i would be a very wise man if i could take the answers and apply them to my life....but sadly...im baffled when it comes to questions like that....where do you place your friends on the scale of priorities?...behind the girlfriend?..in front of the family?...equal to all your friends?....a step above your academics?...you decide...and you tell me..what is more important to you....but for me..i will tell you that friends are in front of the family...a step above academics...and equal standing to a girl...however im no saint...im biased...i put my all friends on a different scale...i do not treat them equally..there are definitely those that matters...and there are definitely those that i would go an extra mile for....and i believe that this holds true for almost everyone...you cant treat everyone equally...at some point there will be those that you favor more compare to others...and those that you treat as bff...do they treat you the same?...or are you just a fool who got tricked to do their bidding...its a scary truth...those of us that are lucky got the better of friendship and they found their bff who would go as far as they could for them...and those of us that are unlucky...got tricked and fooled....and all thats left was nothing but a pool of despair and anger.....i am a very blunt person..brute perhaps...but its something that i find pride in....over the years id say that ive become more tactful...more diplomatic about confrontations...but there is stil an element of the harshness that dictate my way of speech and words...those who understand me will know that i wouldnt use that harshness unless i cared...those that are unworthy of my time..i would not have bothered to make you feel terrible about the way you have been....some might say that its cruel...and its not the right way to go about things...but then..all the more reason to show that i care..dont i?
i try to be a good friend..or the perfect friend so to speak...one who is understanding..one who stays in the shadow to support you...but as with all things in life...doing the right things is often harder than doing the wrong things...it is easier to get angry than to be patient when they annoy you...or when they dont reply your text..msn...o even phone calls....it is easier to be expectant than to be selfless...there will always be a part of you that hope what you did before will be rewarded....and we will fail...we will fall harder than before...despite our good intentions...we will be misjudged...and we will be forsaken....in story books or movies...the ending usually portrays a character who gives up his life or something important to him for someone else...and the script writer often focus on the fact that the person he gives his life to never reward him or gives him the appreciation he deserves...and the character would be ok with it...tragic?...very much so...and i often ask myself..would i be able to do that?..will i be able to be the friend that goes on loving..that goes on supporting even when the friend you are loving and supporting push you away..and blame you for their shortcomings....will i be able to be the friend that never utter a word of retaliation when the friend that you give up everything for lashes back and hurts you?....until this moment i hope to be...but sadly..im not...but that is a friend that i hope to become...i know im not there yet...but i will try my very best...
this post was meant to be a birthday greetings for someone that matters....so before this post turned into an emo post or an angry post...i shall pause and take a moment to say that...i might have wrong you in the past without noticing it...for that im sorry...but i will not apologize for being blunt and brute as you might call me...cause i am who i am..and i cared...but i dont mind you nudging me so that i would not stray off the righteous path..now its to give thanks and say that im glad that you were born today....you might not be the perfect friend..but i will say that you are halfway there....so this is from me..all the best...and happy birthday....