changes...everyone experience changes...your friends...your family..your love ones...your enemies...even strangers that you dont know....its a phase that everyone would go through...but whether one changes for the better or for the worse is a whole different story....as far as i can recall...people around me are changing constantly..but are they the ones who are changing...or am i?....
with all my friends 
and if i have the Inspiron 13 i can blog about it instantly in Hawaii without the need of finding a pc or carrying my bulky desktop......
so that i can take a step back and enjoy life...and hopefully after the treatment i would look as sleek as the Inspiron 13...XD
with no budget constraint for a day...it would be so cool if i could just buy everything that i like....
therefore i would treat myself to a all you can eat buffet with all kinds of food...chinese..indian...malay...koeron..japanese and etc type of food...
why not treat myself a laptop seeing that i actually need a laptop for my studies and i still havent own a laptop yet..so why not an Inspiron 13....
money seem to be the issue with everyone lately...for some unknown reason everyone is almost broke...
haha..i guess its the beginning of the semester and everyone is still very free and in the holiday mood...so everyone is going out alot and splurging uncontrollably...well..its time to control the expenditure or else we will just be eating bread 
for the rest of the month...T.T....so this is just a reminder...spend wisely...haha...but i myself is going broke...T.T...going to declare bankruptcy soon...zzz
i would prefer lazing around doing nothing and just stare blankly into my screen....sometimes its just sad and pathetic...i need help...someone please kidnap me from home and bring me out!....i need a breath of fresh air....i guess my life is pretty dull since i got nothing much to update about lately....i guess thats all for now..im only updating cause im just way too bored...hopefully theres more next time...toodles...
respect and trust is something that is earned....
so people who is genuine and prove themselves worthy will often gain one's respect and trust....you cant demand trust nor respect...therefore those that already earned that privilege...keep it sacred and never betray that circle of trust....this is only how a friendship will grow...
the world's most cruel method of torture ever....here i am...sitting in my dark room 
with nothing else except my desktop in front of me..but i have nothing to do...and no one to talk to...its rather sad actually...despite the fact that i have some matters up in my mind..i have no one to share them with...after some serious consideration of who to text and all..i just notice..i have NO ONE....all that im capable of doing is to count the letters of loneliness....pronounce the word...enunciate it...stress the syllables..and feel them roll off your tongue....
when it appears victorious...loneliness brags and boast about its victory...and when it does...it feels like a heavy weight has just been dropped on top of your chest...you feel that its very difficult to breathe...is this how you should feel after you lost your battle against loneliness?....
against the omnipresent loneliness...hopefully i can have my heart set on the right path and win the war against the omnipotent loneliness...god..please bless me with all your strength so that i have a strong heart to prevail..
Suffering from loneliness trauma...
