i guess something was very wrong from the start...being close for all this time...it was so close of being perfect...but the cruel reality is that we are alive...that is why perfection does not exist..the only thing wrong in this whole picture was us....
we will never be more than what we are right now...and you know what...as much as I'm not okay with that...there is nothing i can do about it....life is just as it is...I'm seriously physically and mentally exhausted and i don't even have the motivation to keep this up anymore...
but i guess its a painful experience that we all must experience in order to grow up...friendship suppose to be effortless and supportive...so when a friendship is no longer those things...i just guess its their way of saying..."hey...we are not friends anymore"....if i say I'm fine and okay with it that is a pure lie....i guess i just got to learn to deal with it and never look back in the past again....Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
arghhh....and they say foundation year suppose to be honeymoon period....well..if anyone tells you this...tell them honeymoon my ass....its a freaking rush....you just rush through life...you don't even have time to take a deep breath...literally!!!......gosh....I'm this close to snapping like a twig...haih...somebody..ANYBODY...please give me strength to continue this ridiculously busy lifestyle!......so for those of my friends that really care which are my real friends...feel free to leave comments boosting my will and inner strength...T.T...
-Josh-
