is that you can usually figure out what cause the problem and fix everything up...
so that its as good as new...i wish i could say the same for human error...
wouldnt it be great if when we really screw up...we can figure out what make us act like a jackass in the first place and fix that mistake...but we are better off when we could avoid the stupid choices in the first place..take a minute...and think about the collateral damage that we cause in other people's life..but as it is all that we have is that "Im sorry"..
but what happens when you dont even get that simple sorry from those that fault you...life still goes on?...or everything else comes to a halt?....
today is 01/01/2010....its the start of the new decade....2009 is finally over...its in the past....2009 was like any other years...there were ups... and there were downs...
but now is to write a whole new chapter in my life....
what might have happened in the past shaped me to what i am today...the past couple of weeks was nothing like a roller coaster ride for me..it was more of a submarine ride..where it just sink and sink and sink without stop...but yesterday..everything was ok for once...because i was reminded that no matter what happens there will always be those that cared...we had a small gathering at jas's house..yes...it was not a big place with swimming pool...the food was no 5 star cuisine....the wine was cheap and the vodka was crappy....but the only thing that matters was the people around...its at moment like this where you need to pause for a moment and take a look around...these are the people who reminds you that you are very much alive...these are the people that matters....so HAPPY 2010 people...
the wine cellar...
picking out potatoes...
me and jas...
marinating the chicken wings...
the carrots...
aaron chopping up the pork...
me with the stupid expression..wang with the stupid hand..andrew with the stupid grin..jhii lien hiding from wang...hong yuen with the cacat leg...
kong...jhii lien and me...
the few that matters....
spreading the love...
looks wrong...but it was fun...
sisterhood?..
dreaming away...
drunk?...
the vodka girl...
the drinkers...
the pic speaks for itself..
last one...
what better way to start off 2010 than some mahjong...
some part of the party pictures were not taken..but heck...good times like this who needs a picutre....those heart warming moments and laughter were engraved into our hearts...which is worth more than a million pictures...i cant think of any other way to end this post than a song which is the mashup of top 25 hits in 2009...the united of pop 2009....
what is a piece of ragged cloth to you?....a valuable piece of cloth that served its purpose and now its worn and torn?...a piece of useless junk that you can discard it whenever you feel like it?....the same concept is applied in life....there are those that only treat that piece of junk as something valuable when they need to clean a dirty table or a chair...if not it would just be a worthless piece of cloth to them....so to clarify things....im a piece of ragged cloth where you only appreciate me when you need it...otherwise you will just ignore and discard me at a corner with no concern about my feelings at all....so...FUCK YOU....oOo.....
friends...a word that is made out of 7 simple alphabets...yet there is an extraordinary meaning behind this 7 alphabet word...we might not realize it but we have learned the meaning of the word since young...we categorize people whom we like and people whom we dont like...you...the girl who is cute...you are my friend....come play with me....but you...the one that suck your finger...its disgusting...you are not my friend..you dont get to play hide and seek with me...as we grow older...we come to realize that friendship is not as simple as that..it requires effort...in fact...tons of endless effort....that needs time..and you need to pour yourself into it for it to grow...and as we grow older..we see different friends come and go...we learn the boundary of friendship...we came to realize how far would my suppose bff go for me?...do you even draw a line of intimacy between two friends?....how do you keep it going for ever?...i would love to have these answers..and i would be a very wise man if i could take the answers and apply them to my life....but sadly...im baffled when it comes to questions like that....where do you place your friends on the scale of priorities?...behind the girlfriend?..in front of the family?...equal to all your friends?....a step above your academics?...you decide...and you tell me..what is more important to you....but for me..i will tell you that friends are in front of the family...a step above academics...and equal standing to a girl...however im no saint...im biased...i put my all friends on a different scale...i do not treat them equally..there are definitely those that matters...and there are definitely those that i would go an extra mile for....and i believe that this holds true for almost everyone...you cant treat everyone equally...at some point there will be those that you favor more compare to others...and those that you treat as bff...do they treat you the same?...or are you just a fool who got tricked to do their bidding...its a scary truth...those of us that are lucky got the better of friendship and they found their bff who would go as far as they could for them...and those of us that are unlucky...got tricked and fooled....and all thats left was nothing but a pool of despair and anger.....i am a very blunt person..brute perhaps...but its something that i find pride in....over the years id say that ive become more tactful...more diplomatic about confrontations...but there is stil an element of the harshness that dictate my way of speech and words...those who understand me will know that i wouldnt use that harshness unless i cared...those that are unworthy of my time..i would not have bothered to make you feel terrible about the way you have been....some might say that its cruel...and its not the right way to go about things...but then..all the more reason to show that i care..dont i?
i try to be a good friend..or the perfect friend so to speak...one who is understanding..one who stays in the shadow to support you...but as with all things in life...doing the right things is often harder than doing the wrong things...it is easier to get angry than to be patient when they annoy you...or when they dont reply your text..msn...o even phone calls....it is easier to be expectant than to be selfless...there will always be a part of you that hope what you did before will be rewarded....and we will fail...we will fall harder than before...despite our good intentions...we will be misjudged...and we will be forsaken....in story books or movies...the ending usually portrays a character who gives up his life or something important to him for someone else...and the script writer often focus on the fact that the person he gives his life to never reward him or gives him the appreciation he deserves...and the character would be ok with it...tragic?...very much so...and i often ask myself..would i be able to do that?..will i be able to be the friend that goes on loving..that goes on supporting even when the friend you are loving and supporting push you away..and blame you for their shortcomings....will i be able to be the friend that never utter a word of retaliation when the friend that you give up everything for lashes back and hurts you?....until this moment i hope to be...but sadly..im not...but that is a friend that i hope to become...i know im not there yet...but i will try my very best...
this post was meant to be a birthday greetings for someone that matters....so before this post turned into an emo post or an angry post...i shall pause and take a moment to say that...i might have wrong you in the past without noticing it...for that im sorry...but i will not apologize for being blunt and brute as you might call me...cause i am who i am..and i cared...but i dont mind you nudging me so that i would not stray off the righteous path..now its to give thanks and say that im glad that you were born today....you might not be the perfect friend..but i will say that you are halfway there....so this is from me..all the best...and happy birthday....
lies....its the opposite of truth....the people around us...how many of them are really truthful and how many of them are just hoax ...i believe its a question with no definite answer....reason being some people are fantastic liars and no one could tell whether he is lying or being truthful.... yes...its undeniable that there are white lies and lies out there...some might say its ok to lie once in a while to slide through stuff..some might disagree cause lying is wrong no matter what you say...a lie is a lie....personally..i would agree with both...lying is wrong no matter what...a lie is a lie..but sometimes u just need that small white lie to get through stuff...but what happens when you lie and someone else caught you doing so...you just have to tell more lies to cover up your previous lies?....aint that kinda ridiculous....the lies would snowball and at the end..there is someone that is bound to be HURT....instead of telling more lies...why cant they just admit and confess they lied when they were caught..wont that solve all the problem?....its as simple as that...yes..some might be afraid to tell the truth...cause the truth is hard...in general..everything that is righteous is hard...and its not that hard when you start...its as simple as that...confess....there is no need for more lies...but when you thought of it in a deeper manner...why would they lie in the first place...i believe this is a question that only the liar can answer....is it because they are afraid to let other people know that they broke a promise?....is it because they are afraid that people might find out they are nothing but a hoax?....is it because of bad influence?..is it because they are afraid that when you find out...they can no longer manipulate you to get stuff that they want?....its a scary thought....until this instant you do not know they people you are with are genuine or not...lies...its something that is not tolerable no matter what....the only way you can gain retribution from a lie is by telling the truth...
